CANCER SUCKS!!!

I am so sick of cancer! I hate it, it is so awful. Most all of you know that just two years ago my husband Kevin had cancer. That was the HARDEST time of my life and was tramatic to say the least. I had a 3 month old baby when Kevin was diagnosed and was batteling terrible post-partum depression and anxiety. Our lives were turned upside down in one day, on friday Kevin was completely fine and pain free, on saturday he woke up with his testicle 2 to 3 times the normal size and pain. He didn't tell me about it all day but at around 5:00 that evening he started to worry a bit and showed me it. Just weeks before a co-worker of mine that I was close to got testicular cancer and was in the middle of his cancer battle so cancer was fresh on my mind and so to be safe we took Jackson to Kevin's parents house and told them we were going out on a date and went to the instacare. This is when everything started to fall into place... My family physician who I absolutly love and adore happened to be working an extra shift in the instacare we went to and checked Kevin out, he determined that he had a big infection (which he did) but I mentioned my worries of cancer so to be safe made a quick call to the hospital and caught an ultrasound tech who was packing up for the day and asked him to wait for us to come to get an ultrasound. If we were just 20 minutes later we would have had to wait till monday. The ultrasound tech was really open and honest with us even though he isn't allowed to say anything by law, he told us that there was a large solid mass, which is always a bad thing.

Before we were out of the parking lot of the hospital I had placed a call to my old boss who is the wife of the best urologist in the area. After telling him what the ultrasound said he said he would definatly need the tumor removed and he happened to have some time monday morning to get Kevin into surgery. One more thing that fell into the place...

Needless to say Kevin had surgery and they got all of the tumor out and he proceded to go through 3 solid weeks of radiation at the hospital. He has now been cancer free for almost 2 years. It was a whirlwind to go through and we learned a lot and went through a lot as newelyweds and new parents.

Having my husband go through cancer was terrible and today I learned that the other most important man in my life has cancer, my dad.

I was so unprepared for this to happen, not that you can even be ready for cancer... I am in shock and just so heart-broken to know that he will be batteling prostate cancer. He is 65 and thankfully just got on Medicare which will help with all the costs. I think in a daughters eyes her dad is always this strong man that is invincible, so it is such a hard blow to know that he is sick. I don't know much about treatments yet, we will be brain-storming tonight at my mom and dads. I just hate that cancer is hurting another of my loved ones.