Why am I so lucky?

{Going to Meet the Teacher Day}

This boy makes me incredibly happy! I don't know why I got to be the lucky one who was chosen to be his mom. I get to spend a great deal of time with him and the things he does and says are priceless!
The other week we were headed to my sisters house, which is about 40 minutes away. Kevin was home so the whole family was in the car. Jackson loves to sit in the middle of the backseat to be by Mya. Partway into the ride Mya started to fuss (common in the car) I reached into the diaper bag to find something to give her and I found two little containers with her treats in them- one had puffs and the other had yogurt drops. I handed them to Jackson and commented to Kevin how glad I am that he thought to pack those.... Kevin said "I didn't put those in there" just then from the backseat Jackson said "I did mom! I got those for Mya so she wouldn't be sad."
I was so proud of him! He had thought of Mya and knew that she doesn't like the car and thought ahead. He didn't pack a snack for himself even though the snack bin is right next to her snacks on the shelf, he only thought of making her happy. Thinking about my little four year old getting the bowls, filling them up, snapping on the lids and putting them in the diaper bag all by himself brought tears to my eyes.

This morning as I drove him to preschool He was talking to me about what he will do after high school, and I said he will go to college, and he asked what he will do after college, and I said that he will then find a job. He asked what he will do for a job and I told him he can do anything he wants, like be a doctor or fly airplanes. He then said "OK, but first I will be a Missionary and I will go on a mission to the ocean and teach all the sea animals. I'll teach all the mean ones how to be nice and not eat the fishes." While this struck me as cute and funny, I also was so impressed with him to talk about wanting to be a missionary! Love him :)

These are just two instances in the past few weeks... I really love the little man he is turning into and am so proud of him.

Beginnings and Endings....

A Beginning.....

 Today was Jackson's first day of Pre-School. I don't know who was more excited me or him. A year ago I kind of dreaded him going to preschool because I thought I would be so sad and lonely... Miss Mya sure fixed that fear! I am never lonely now... Anyway, I was ready for Jackson to go now. He was so excited last night as I was tucking him in to bed. I admit it, I was pretty excited too. We woke up at about 8 this morning and has cereal together then got ready. Mya woke up at about 9. We headed out the door by about 9:25 and arrived right on time at Miss. Karli's house at 9:30.
We had met Miss. Karli yesterday so we knew where to go and what to do. He has his own Cubby with a pencil box with glue, crayons, and a pencil in it.
When I dropped him off today I stayed for just a minute and when I went to leave I couldn't even get him to look at me long enough to wave goodbye to him! I thought for sure that would break my heart, but it was just the opposite, I felt so happy for him! I knew he was ready, I knew he would love it, so how could that make me feel sad? At pick up time he went on and on about how great his day was and all the things they did and all about his new friend "who wore the bright blue shirt." I love hearing about all the things he thought were important from his day... It does make me sad to think from now on the time where I had him completely to myself is gone. I had a long time with just me and him, it will never be like that again. He is such a great kid. He is kind, and loving, and is sensitive to others. I guess it's time to share my sweet little boy with others :)

 Headed out the door! He was "pretending to walk to preschool" he told me.

A Ending.....

When I was a new mom one of the hardest things I did was breastfeeding. I struggled with it for four full months, every feeding. When Jackson was four months Kevin got cancer so I had to stop, the stress pushed me over the edge. This time around with Mya I was determined to nurse her till a year. At her last well child visit her weight took a drop and The doctor discussed with us the fact that it might be that she isn't getting enough milk. He was very kind about it and didn't even mention stopping nursing to me, but it made me keep better track of her eating habits. I was nursing her 6-7 times in a 24 hour period ( a lot) but when I was gone one night past bedtime Kevin gave Mya a bottle of frozen breastmilk and she drank quite a bit. Since I missed a feeding I decided to pump, by the end I only had about 2 ounces from both sides combined. I looked up online how much she was supposed to be getting and it was WAY short. After lots of tears I decided to stop nursing and switch to formula. I had tried many times in the past to up my supply with herbs and teas and stuff and it never really helped a lot so I decided formula was just a better choice.
Mya hated it. She didn't mind the bottle but she just refused the formula most of the time. After a few frustrating days I decided to google "what is the best tasting baby formula' I found a blog post from some dad who had done a taste test of a bunch of formula brands. His reactions were funny and very candid- his result was Similac is by far the best tasting, it is sweeter and creamier. So last night I went straight to the store and bought a can. The result? SHE LOVED IT! Has downed every bottle we have given her totally fine!
I finally stopped feeling so guilty today about stopping nursing when I was feeding her a bottle and I realized I tried my hardest and that this is ok... She is happier and this is good for her!

Today ended up being a great day! While Jackson was at preschool Mya took a nap and I had a wonderful 2 hours all to myself... Pure Bliss!